Seize the day

2010-02-05T07:03:00.001-08:00

http://findingyou-out.blogspot.com/

~~~~

2010-02-02T10:33:00.001-08:00

Exams. HERE I COME ~

2010-01-26T05:54:00.000-08:00

Really, really.

As true as a fact. Really.

2010-01-23T09:23:00.000-08:00

Damn ~

2010-01-22T09:02:00.001-08:00

Those wandering eyes....

2010-01-18T07:35:00.000-08:00

MAN. 4 marks to pass CT2 for Bstats.

Screw it. After much calculation, I need to score above 95 for Bstats
during final exams to even have a glimpse of hope to get A.
FUCK IT.

ZZZ

Chionging session continues tomorrow ~

2010-01-16T11:06:00.000-08:00

Here's a classic tale of Bok Pok Lau.

TODAY IS SUNDAY.
WHICH MEANS TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY FOR NSS PROJECT SUBMISSION.
AND WE'RE HALFWAY DONE.
VERY GOOD.

But anyway, the DPA camp sparked me up to chiong studies.
HERE I GO~~~

2010-01-15T08:46:00.000-08:00

DPA CAMP ENDED.

I wished that it'd go on and on and on.
I'd have much preferred that the camp is held on Friday to Sunday.
Cause in that case we don't have to rush between lessons and camp...

Anyway it's over. And it ended very well.

I must say that trainers from The Absorbent Mind are really good.
From all the 3 camps I attended, each having a different role, made me realized
and learned many many things.
From being a freshie to being a step up leader to being a step back leader.

All of these don't just occur to people, you have to go through
certain things to know.

One Melissa said which I totally agree, DPA mates are the people whom
you're closest to in school.

It might not always show, but DPA is a big and closely knitted family.
It can be easily seen by the fact that we're able to work together
even if we've not talked for a long long time.
Not to mention that we're able to talk like we just knew each other yesterday.
Being able to share everything really feels awesome.

One other thing which I agree with Sharmilee is that it's rather difficult to
make really close friends in Poly, and thank god there's DPA.

Now that she mentioned it, I realized that my close friends in Poly are
my DPA mates.

Although there were sacrifices to be made just to attend the camp, it was all
worth it. Skipping lessons, failing test and having 2-3hours of sleep for 3 night straight is just a small part of the camp, with the bigger picture of learning
important skills and communication with one another.

All in all, DPA Camp '10 ended beautifully, just like DPA Camp '09.

DAL - PAUZ ^_^

2010-01-11T06:48:00.000-08:00

Sian lar. I wanna go for DPA camp.
FARK.
_|_

2010-01-10T08:20:00.001-08:00

Some people have all the luck !!!

2010-01-09T09:44:00.000-08:00

Bored. Very bored.

Projects are starting to pile up.
Needa complete them before they start snowballing
and in no time I find myself screwed ( again ) -.-

Met _|_Bros just now, together with YiSheng, Jena and EngTheng.
Had KFC at carpark, talk cock ( as usual )

Been a pretty long time since we last met ( we as in all of us )

HOHOHO

2010-01-07T06:41:00.000-08:00

我们- Energy

2010-01-06T05:28:00.000-08:00

O.o.

Apparently there's a hillgrove alumni meeting this coming friday.
I really wonder who's in the alumni -,-

2010-01-04T06:55:00.000-08:00

My plans to sleep early keep failing.
ZZZ.

Today's failed attempt number one.

1hour behind time.

-_-

Anyway I feel a little more confident in getting tomorrow's
MIEC and ITB results.
Cause NSS wasn't pretty bad, quite surprisingly.

HOPE THAT ITB AND MIEC WON'T BE SCREWED UP.
-_-

2010-01-03T04:33:00.000-08:00

School's starting in approximately 15 hours and 30minutes.

Nightmare, the first lesson for the second half of the semester
is N-S-S.

Apparently I know nuts about this module, all the servers and stuffs.
Really, it's freaking difficult to understand NSS.
-_-

Next major event : None
Expected : Slack
Fears : BSTATS lectures
Gone-Case : CT results

2010-01-02T11:48:00.000-08:00

OKAY.

Blog about something happy huh.

LOL!

So today was CKP's outing @ Vivo ( again )

I was the first to reach, followed by muthu, china boy and indo boy.
Captain was the last.
LAST.

HAHAHAHA.

After making a few rounds in Vivo, we finally decide to settle for
The Mussel Guys.
Wasn't too bad, the food was nice. But a little pricey.

Following that, we chilled out at some random place with random
kids screaming here and there.
Muthu then sang us a song, and I forgot the title.
There was you, and I, or something.

ALL IN ALL, TODAY'S A GOOD DAY SPENT.
( as compared to the rest of the holidays )

Next meetup would prolly be in March !

Time Check : 3.52AM.

Next tragedy unfolding : SCHOOL. CONTINUES.

2010-01-01T12:46:00.001-08:00

We laugh, we always do.

But the question is, who's the joke?

Yourself, or them?

2010-01-01T07:30:00.000-08:00

Despite knowing that my blog is barely visited, I'm still gonna go on with this.

ANYONE GOT A JOB TO INTRO?

2009-12-31T02:38:00.000-08:00

Before we know it, 2009 is coming to an end.

The haunting past will still continue to haunt us, it doesn't
go away once the clock strikes 12.

JUST KIDDING.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay anyway seriously 2009 is ending.
As I speak, we're 11 hours and 19minutes away from a new year.

Looking back, 2009 has been an eventful year.

I bought a new desk 2 days ago, and it was delivered yesterday.
I dump all my small little toys/decors on top of it.

Ahead of me is a fairly big piece of paper, with my name on it
and severals Post-It. It was an activity back in the DPA Bintan Camp,
where we had to write whatever we want on Post-It, and paste it
on other people's "wall"

I read every note all over again, and promptly realized how much
I've gained, and lost.

The second major event was to integrate into my class.
To be plain honest, TT21 wasn't really very active
in class gatherings and stuffs.
I would attribute that to the fact that people feel closer
to their secondary school friends, like me.

Learning how to cope with school is another matter.
But it was fortunate that I had a headstart during DPA, so I wasn't such a
stranger to Poly.

Still, I HAVE NO CCA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

----------------------------------------------------------

Right.

Time check : 1.57AM

Just back from a " new year's eve " outing with hang and ting.
Only one word.

EMO.

LOL.
Even the Bangladeshi workers went in groups of 4 or more.
WE ONLY HAD 3.

Right. Before we went for our movie, we had dinner at Steak House.
Not too bad, at least I thought it's better than Pizza Hut. ( comparing the price )

Then we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2

Freaking funny. Worth the 10bucks.
HAHA.

Oh, new year resolution.

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION WOULD BE .............

TO THINK OF A NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR THE YEAR 2011 ^_^

My new year resolutions don't happen anyway, so what's the point -_-

Random, but.

Sometimes I just wonder if everything I knew is still that way.
Because many a times I find myself having doubts about every little thing.

Probably, history is repeating itself.
Sometimes I really wish I have Matt Parkman's ability.
Makes life so much easier.

2009-12-30T08:22:00.000-08:00

It's 31st now !!!

Brand new year awaits, shall put 2009 behind me.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Eventful year, -,-

2009-12-28T05:33:00.000-08:00

http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Promise-xiang-ri-kui-de-yue-ding/253995855394?ref=mf#/pages/The-Promise-xiang-ri-kui-de-yue-ding/253995855394?v=wall&ref=mf

So that show I was talking about ( below ) is called The Promise.

2009-12-27T07:23:00.000-08:00

Just finished watching the Channel U show.
Erm don't know the english title but a direct translation
would be " The Sunflower's Promise "

Not bad, really.

2009-12-26T10:49:00.000-08:00

OooooooooooooooooooOooooooooooooooooooooo

Sometimes I really wonder the existence of this blog -_-

2009-12-25T10:15:00.001-08:00

Shitty X'mas.

To top it off with a FUCKING LAGGY CONNECTION.

2009-12-24T09:21:00.000-08:00

Okay so I went out with hang and wils to town for " countdown party "

We waited for around an hour or so, only to realize that we missed the countdown.
-_-

Christmas this year feels a little out of place.
Or is it us that are out of place?

Nevertheless, Merry Christmas !!!

2009-12-20T05:47:00.000-08:00

Class BBQ tomorrow at ECP !!!

Ton session, bla bla bla.

2009-12-19T10:26:00.000-08:00

BORED.

ZZZZ.

Holidays started, like 2 days ago.

Mum's been nagging me to find a job ._.

2 WEEKS NIA. WITH X'MAS AND NEW YEAR S-O-M-E-M-O-R-E.

HAHAHAHAHA.

Rotting continues ~

2009-12-17T07:03:00.001-08:00

WOOT.

COMMON TEST IS OVER.
MUAWAHAHAHAHAHA.

WHAT'S AHEAD IS 2 WEEKS OF HOLIDAY !!!

*awkward silence*

....................................

Hmm... Holidays.
What can I do?

2009-12-13T06:24:00.000-08:00

2009-12-09T16:49:00.000-08:00

Finding Me Out - Friday Night Boys

Park my car right across from her house last night
Climb the tree just to see if she'd turn on the lights

Slipped and fell to the ground
I'm not sure but I
Think she saw me driving away

I think she knows what I'm trying to say

But I don't know how
She's finding me out
It's bringing me down
'Cause nothings as hard as the first time
I'm fooling myself
She'll never be mine
But still at night
She's finding me out
She's finding me out

Past her by in the hall
Felt my heart beat fast
Turned around and
I swear I saw her looking back

Walked my way
Thought she waved
But it wasn't me
Must have been to somebody else

Tried to hide it but I think she could tell

That I'm falling now

She's finding me out
It's bringing me down
'Cause nothings as hard as the first time
I'm fooling myself
She'll never be mine
But still at night
She's finding me out x2

She's beautiful
Popular
Scared that I don't belong in her world
I Can't sleep
When I can't believe
And I've got a feeling
That she's on to me
To me

She's finding me out
It's bringing me down
'Cause nothings as hard as the first time
I'm fooling myself
She'll never be mine
But still at night
She's finding me out
'Cause nothings as hard as the first time
I'm folling myself
She'll never be mine
But still at night
She's finding me out
Out
She's finding me out
Out

2009-12-09T07:37:00.001-08:00

Hmmm new map for SUN is coming out soon.
But too bad it's the exam period now !!!

Shit it. Hai.
Not that I wanna play so badly...

Just need something to kill time.
EXCEPT. STUDYING.

2009-12-07T06:19:00.000-08:00

I really love this song.
But I don't know why.
LoL.

Maybe it's because of the lyrics.

Sometimes in life there are certain things
you wished that you never knew existed.
And the last thing you want is to actually
understand what's beneath it.

Being humans, we often seek the easy way out.
And the easiest way ever known to man, is to avoid, pretend
and be oblivious towards it.

2009-12-06T06:09:00.000-08:00

LOL.

Oh well.

First paper this saturday ~

MIEC I think.
Or something.
Wooot.

MIEC has quite a bit to memorize.
Shall dedicate my thursday and friday night for revising MIEC.
B-Stats isn't so bad, since it's only the first 4 chapters.
Nevertheless, I still hope to get like 37/40 or something.
Need that to pull up the overall score since it's for sure that
final exam will be a killer.

Started a bit on NSS. ITB, not yet.
Shall mug in school after lessons for this entire week.

That's pretty much life until end of common test ~
The end of a boring phase, and a beginning of another.

2009-12-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

If life can be expressed as a Maths equation...

Let x = something
Let y = nothing
Let z = daily life

z = y OR z = x

x = y

Therefore z = x

Basically my current equation is z = y.
I need my y to become x.

Let nothing be something, because right now I have
nothing.

2009-12-04T09:41:00.001-08:00

When you're on the bus not knowing where you're headed to,

When you're on the bus and the scenery glided by,

When you're on the bus and happened to stumble upon a familiar road,

When you're on the bus and wondering what you're doing,

When you're on the bus staring at your Ipod and wondering what song to play next,

When you're on the bus with a million thoughts running past your head,

When you're on the bus and gets so preoccupied with your thoughts that you didn't realize someone sat beside you,

When you're on the bus and didn't realize that the air-con is too cold,

When you're on the bus and didn't realize there's a drizzle,

When you're on the bus and everyone seems so far away from you,

What were your thoughts, when all these happened?

2009-11-27T07:19:00.001-08:00

O.O.

Mobile broadband ftw

2009-11-17T06:35:00.001-08:00

Some emptiness should be left alone.
It's better not to touch them.

HMM life's been boring ~
Weekly dinner with yan and wilson.
HANG HAS YET TO SHOW UP.

Pool tomorrow with wilson.
And gym before that.
WOOOOOO.

2009-11-16T07:08:00.001-08:00

What to do?

2009-11-12T07:19:00.000-08:00

I also wish for someone to talk to.

2009-11-11T07:09:00.000-08:00

I wish you were in my class.

* SAD FACE *

2009-11-09T06:01:00.001-08:00

I. NEED. TO. GO. OUT.
BEEN. SO. LONG. SINCE. I. LAST.
WENT. OUT.

I'm damn bored.
Really.
VERY BORED.
zzzzzzzz.

I do hope I get a job at IT fair.
NEED MONEYZ.

2009-11-08T07:05:00.000-08:00

Wooooooooooooooooooooooooo I've been MIA for so long.

Life's still the same, gym and school.
But apparently I finally received my first
assignment for this sem, which is to create an
e-portfolio.
And that seriously sucks because I can't
get the shitty thing to work !!!

I strongly believe that the school system sucks _|_

Oh well, I'm still so damn free.
Free in the sense that I don't have much
assignments. OH maybe one, to create a website.
Hmm...

Time to figure out how to use Microsoft expressions !

_|_

2009-10-30T08:17:00.003-07:00

Hmmm..

Well, school's okay.

Not that busy ~
More time for gym ~

2009-10-28T08:09:00.001-07:00

Man.

I think I'm going back to the standard way of gym-ing.

Shall gym on every alternate days.
Which means tomorrow...
Hmmmmmmmmm.

Been playing S.U.N.
All over again.
Fucked up Dragon Transformation.
CB.
Waste my time. Nabehz GM ignore me.
LANPA JI.

2009-10-27T20:11:00.001-07:00

TIRED. SLEEPY.

If everything could restart all over again,
I would not take that route.
Because I wasted so much of my time on someone
so senseless.

I regret it, I really do.
Damn it.
Should have spent my time wisely.

2-4 today ~
Wooooooooooot

2009-10-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

Okay something interesting happened yesterday.

Dave, wilson, ken, kaya, charlene and I slacked
at Akina. We were so damn bored and thus we decided
to disturb other people.

Not far from us lays a vehicle, with a couple in it making
out. So we decided to creep nearer to the vehicle and see
what's happening.
LOL !

Then we got very close and apparently the guy saw us.
Then he open the door and OI ! us.

Of course, we ran.
LOL.
Dave shouted " OI RUN " then all ran away.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Then we scouted the whole carpark to find any traces of
the vehicle.
But sadly it was gone
._.
There goes our fun.

Gonna have the next " hunting trip "
Shiokness.

2009-10-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

Today I decided to go back to my favourite
past time, TAKING BUS !

Hahahaha.
Was so bored today. Thus I took 173 to Batok INT after school.
Had a couple of hours and I began to explore other
bus routes. I took 189 after much consideration.
Was considering 106 but that leads to town and is kind of far,
I can't go home if I want to. 189 goes to Clementi area and back
to Batok, perfect.

So that's my day. Probably gym-ing tomorrow morning.
School or Gombak?

2009-10-21T09:31:00.000-07:00

Okay I'm told that I haven't posted in ages.
In which I totally agree.

Man life's been so hectic ( not really ).

Just plain rotting and laziness ~
LOL !

Well, been going to the gym often with kaya.
Gonna start hitting the school gym.
Hope it won't be crowded ~!

I barely study for more than 4hours everyday.
Monday, tuesday and friday 4hours.
Wednesday and thursday 2hours.
OH HO ~

Slackiest schedule so far.
LOL !
Which means more time for other things ~

Gonna enjoy my time ~
Gym, sleep, slack.
Oh well, I'm starting to feel that life's a little
empty ~

I'm having sleeping disorders nowadays.
ZzZ.
All over again.

I'd have weird dreams.
Dreams which I hope they turn into reality.
Really do.
But it's probably impossible and I'm learning to live with that.

I browsed through my ITB( info-tech in business ) textbook.
I saw this argument by an economist or something, they were
arguing the impacts that technology has.

One of the argument went like,

" It's impossible to solve poverty because the best proof is no
one has done it before "

True? No?

Going by this, then many things are impossible to do.
Hmm..

2009-10-12T03:48:00.000-07:00

Money saving starts all over again ~

Time to save money after seeing kaya hold so many $50 notes
in his hands. -.-

SO ENVIOUS.

Time for me to start.

HAHAHA.

I wonder where did my $100+ went -_-
It was still in my drawer... 2months ago.

._.

2009-10-11T10:45:00.001-07:00

Bleach : Fade To Black is nice !

Epic moment when Kenpachi released his reaitsu.
LOL.
Sent Ikakku flying.

Wellz, school's starting in a week.

Gonna go gym-ing on every alternate days ~

Heroes is addictive.
But time to sleep ~!

2009-10-09T14:29:00.001-07:00

It suddenly dawn on me how simple life can be.

Work to get what you want.
Slog away with people you're comfortable with,
earn some bucks and enjoy holidays.

But what's beyond that?

What will exactly happen when we officially
" grow up " and step into the working world?

Will we have lesser time for other things?
The time we take to appreciate the littlest things in life would
slowly be taken away.

It's 5.31 AM now and I just woke up from a dream.
And I assume Marble is in the dream =D

Feeling good !
豆浆油条 for breakfast.
Followed by gym..
And school to settle some stuffs.
Good day ahead because my day started with
a good dream !!!

2009-10-05T12:00:00.000-07:00

Okay.

Penang, Ipoh, Redang, Malacca, Langkawi, Tioman.

Where for holiday ?!?!

2009-10-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

Thus I finally bought a watch.

$400 bucks !!!

LOL.

But I shall not bring it to work.
._.
It'll turn black in one day if I bring it along with me.

2009-10-03T10:46:00.000-07:00

Okay.

Okay.

Watch hunting tomorrow.
HOHO.
_|_

2009-10-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

Okay.

So the class gathering aka steamboat/grill went okay.
Wow, damn full.
LOL.

And my mother officially forbade me to go for the batam trip.
-_-

2009-09-29T09:11:00.000-07:00

Sian man !

Class gathering count here count there only got
11 coming.
SIANZ ~~~

2009-09-27T09:12:00.001-07:00

I am totally not in the mood to work for this holiday.

2009-09-25T12:13:00.000-07:00

When salt is absent from a dish, the salty taste is gone.
When sunlight is absent from this world, there is no warmth.
When a basketball is absent from a basketball court, the court becomes obsolete.

Every single thing has an impact on this world.

Everything you do comes with an opportunity cost.

Sometimes a simple conversation can make you realize something
that you'd never imagine.
But the problem is, the opportunity cost of that conversation is still there.

I'm happy with my life at the moment, but I really wished that
some things never took place.

All our emotions being masked, all the lies we've said.
None of it made sense. But still it is whatever that's left behind.

Choice. Everyone can and have many different choices to choose from.
Why choose to cling on to the past?
Why choose to bottle everything inside?
Why choose to refuse to have faith in people?
Why choose to face everything by yourself and get stuck in the
vicious cycle ?
Why choose to put on a pretense?
Don't understand. Or maybe I choose not to understand.

Now it's over, what's next ?

2009-09-24T10:24:00.001-07:00

Woo manz.

So today I cut cala, cut until my finger.
ZZZ.
LOL.

Then I cut dory fish.
Cold until numb.
ZZZ.

Then when hang and I gonna leave the place,
M ask hang to mix the rice.
-_-.

Then when he was finally done,
M ASKED ME TO WASH THE SINK CAUSE
I WAS THE ONE USING.
BUT NO, I HAD TO WASH 2 SINKS CAUSE I USED ONE
OF THEM.
-.-.

Okay so hang and I chiong the sink.
LOL.
Joke sia.

Morning shift tomorrow.
Then...

2009-09-24T05:40:00.001-07:00

2009-09-23T09:16:00.001-07:00

Kaoz.

Work at fish and co ar, one day eat one meal.
Zai.

Anyway it was fun today with Sol and Kar.
Fucking funny.
LOL !

2009-09-23T00:45:00.001-07:00

Friday Night Boys please release another album ASAP !!!

2009-09-22T11:40:00.000-07:00

Man.

LOL.

First day at work.
Still okay okay.
A lot of guidance from the seniors.

2009-09-21T12:26:00.000-07:00

LoL.

Mass downloading.

Boys like Girls released a new album !
And I have it already !
HAHA.

Haste the Day, Friday Night Boys, 30 Seconds to Mars, Anberlin,
Breaking Benjamin, Green Day, All American Rejects and System of a Down.

Any other bands to intro ?!?!

2009-09-20T09:03:00.000-07:00

Okay so I still can't figure out
what's so interesting about soccer.

I mean yeah, the buying and selling
of players. One thing I gotta admit though,
it isn't that easy to be good at soccer.

I'm referring to EPL, or the Spanish league.

Maybe it's just me, but I don't really have any interest
towards this kind of thing.
Millions of people are going gaga over it.

Cause I don't think that sitting on the couch
and watch soccer for a full 90 minutes is productive.
If I were to do that, I'd definitely get alcohol and knock
myself out.
LOL !

2009-09-19T18:19:00.000-07:00

Finding Me Out - Friday Night Boys

I love this song.

2009-09-19T08:49:00.000-07:00

Okay so I started mapling today and yeah it's okay.
Except that I'm fucking irritated by the
fact that I keep missing those dumb crocs, jr neckis,
evil eye and that retarded slime king.
zZz.
Makes me feel like playing something else.

Okay yeah so I'm waiting for MrHang to reply me.

Then I saw this childish argument ongoing at
GGC chat.
Yeah what's new anywayz?
LOL.

So I realized that there are many things not in place yet.
Damn.

It's like..

The class chalet hasn't been booked.
No job at the moment.
No goals at the moment.

It's like when you wake up, you don't know
why you woke up or what you're gonna do later.
Other than playing games and slacking.

This is holiday?
Damnzxzxzxz.
Since when did holidays become so utterly boring.

It's 4.10AM now.
To prevent myself from procrastinating against going to the gym,
I'm gonna stay up till 7. Then I'll head for gym
with kaya.

So I'll go down to grab my breakfast..

My laobu told me that people who don't sleep during the
normal time or always keep late nights will age
quicker. Hmm. Chao lao, to put it simply.
But guys look mature good what right.
HAHAHA !

2009-09-17T15:42:00.000-07:00

SIAO LIAO LA.

I MUST BE DREAMING.

IT'S 6.20AM THAT I LOOK AT MY RESULTS.

THIS POST WILL BE FULL OF CAPS.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I TALKING?
ARGH.

BMGT - B [ OKAY, EXPECTED ]
DSS - A [ WHAT THE FUCK LOL LUCKY ME ]
MACROECONOMICS - B [OKAY FAIR ENOUGH ]
POA - B+ [ WOW GIFT ]
PBA - A [ AISEH MAN ]

SO I'VE LEFT ONE OUT.
WHICH IS.
MY DISCIPLINARY STUDIES.
THE MODULE WHICH EVERYONE SAY IS A FREE A.

GUESS WHAT.

I GOT.

A

FUCKING

C.

HOW COOL IS THAT ?????????????????????????

HOLY CHEEEEEEEEEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OH MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

C FOR IS.
HOW PATHETIC CAN I GET ?????????????????????

2009-09-17T08:20:00.000-07:00

OOoOOOOOoOOO

RESULTS OUT TOMORROW.

HOLY SHIT

2009-09-16T12:58:00.001-07:00

Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

2009-09-16T12:58:00.000-07:00

Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

2009-09-16T08:03:00.000-07:00

I love this girl <3

Holy shit, her smile at the end of the video totally melts anything
within me.
LOL !

Wah dey.
OMG.
LOL !

I keep watching her videos.
LOL

2009-09-15T10:26:00.000-07:00

I am so surprised.

Today is one of the very rare days in my life.
I was hit by this feeling of guilt, which rarely happens.

I can't cover up my lies by labeling it as a white lie, it just
doesn't work that way.
I don't like to lie and similarly I don't like being lied to.
Yeah maybe 9/10 of the people across the globe have
the same mindset as me.

Therefore it won't work. I'm convinced that this method will
never work out for me.

The silent, seemingly harmless emotion that stirred up everything
within, is what we call guilt.

I can work doubly hard, I can knock every single door in the
neighbourhood, I can earn lesser and I can wait for months for people to join me in this
line.
But I can never trick people into joining me, I can never use lies to
achieve my aims and I certainly will not be satisfied with my achievement
if I use orthodox methods.

But the thing is, without lies you can't advance.
It's very clear. You need to lie.

If that's the case then just let it go and find another spot.
The world is so big.

2009-09-14T13:34:00.000-07:00

Money Money Money.

So I continued to survive in MLM industry.
Still trying to survive.

Need to start recruiting members.
Damn. I'm not as prepared as how I sound
when Jeremy asked me.

But well..

2 interesting stories I heard today.
Or 3. But I can't remember the last one.

The first is one of the French King/Leader, Napoleon *something*.
Didn't really catch the name

Anyway this Napoleon guy is an accomplished admiral back then.
Eons ago, France is very big, and the ruler controlled 1/5
of the entire world ( or so I heard ).
Napoleon fought great wars against many people and
survived through all the wars.

However, Napoleon started as a peasant.
Now the time came for the King to pass on his throne.
He wishes to pass to Napoleon, but sadly he is not of royal blood.
Nevertheless, he decided to give him a chance to prove himself,
a final mission that might cost him his life.

So Napoleon was tasked to destroy this group of people living
on an isolated island a distance away. The exact location
wasn't specified, so Napoleon had to drift on the sea and
look for the island.

Weeks went past, and still no sight of any island.
Food was running out, fuel was running low and the morale
of the troops were incredibly low.

Finally, Napoleon decided to restock on food and fuel at
the next island he can set his sight on.
So they docked at this island that they saw, and a couple
of the soldiers were tasked to gather fuel and food.

However, a bad news came when the soldiers returned.
It turned out that the island they were on, resided the group
of people whom they're hunting.
Now Napoleon is struck, the morale of the soldiers are low,
how can they put up a fight ?

Words spread across the troops like a wildfire burning through a forest.

Very soon, everyone panicked and Napoleon had to do something, fast.

He then ordered the troops to use the remaining fuel to burn all their own ships.
The soldiers were baffled, yet they could not defy orders.

Very soon, all the ships were burned and there was no way to return home.
The only ships remaining were those that belonged to that group of people.

Therefore Napoleon gathered the troops, and told them of this.
All the soldiers had a common thought in mind, the only mean of returning
home is to eradicate those people and seize their ships.
Therefore their morale boosted tremendously.

They fought against those people, and they were at a disadvantage.
The ratio was 1:3.
Odds were against Napoleon, yet at the end of the day they managed to win.

Moral of the story?
Up to you guys to think.

Sometimes I think that cutting off our own route may not prove to be
a wrong or foolish decision, as it'd mean that we only have one route to go.
It's like being desperate. When you're desperate, you'd do anything to survive.
Likewise, in order to succeed in life, be it any industry you're in, you have to be
desperate for success.
How many times in life you get what you want?
Maybe once, maybe twice.
How many times in life you get what you really really really really want?
Everytime.

The difference is obvious. The more desperate you are, the more likely you'll get it.
That's the equation of success.

( 100% quoted from Mr Dewey, a really really fantastic motivational speaker )

Second story.

There's this old monk that lives at the top of the mountain with a young monk.
Of course, there are other people who resides at the top of the mountain.
Day in day out, the old monk would teach the young monk many things
about Buddhism. Of course, the young monk would take the initiative to read
all the books available.

One day, the young monk finally finished reading all the books and he could
answer everyone's questions without fail.
True enough, his knowledge is vast.
However, he decided to become complacent because he felt that
there's nothing more to learn.

The old monk then invited the young monk into his abode to have a little chat.
Tea pouring was their tradition, and thus the old monk poured hot tea into the young
monk's teacup. However, the old monk kept pouring and pouring even though
the teacup is filled to its brim.

Naturally, the hot tea scalded the young monk's hands.
He was baffled and angry at the same time.

The old monk then explained the reason behind his action.
He wanted the young monk to understand that tea is like the knowledge
and teacup is like our brain. We have to consistently absorb the knowledge
to make the teacup empty, so that new knowledge can be poured in.
If we allow ourselves to be contented with just a small amount of knowledge, then
we will never improve. One or two cups of tea is like the tip of an iceberg as compared
to the teapot.

I know there are many stories that depict this scenario.
But it truly makes sense, doesn't it?
You may be the CEO, you may be like Bill Gates, yet the only
way to improve is to absorb knowledge. If you decided to label yourself
as the number one genius in this world, then you're on the road
to destruction.

Yeah, you know, I know. Everybody knows about the endless theories to success.

But what exactly is the difference between us and the successful people ?
The answer may be really simple, they understood and absorbed what
we blocked out from our mind.

3 inspirational quotes from the seminar.

A man without dreams is like a bird without wings.

You don't get what you want, you get what you really really
really want.

Quitters don't win, winners don't quit.

Both are from Mr Dewey.
He's a really awesome speaker. Really.
He's just like my DPA Camp instructor.

I know many people have doubts and are skeptical against
MLM. I did research on it, and I know you can just grab any guy
along Orchard Road and that guy will probably tell you
that MLM is unpractical and it sucks.

Sometimes they'd say it's all about sales, nothing more.
People are not convinced when I use the word " benefit ".
Sales is NOT my priority, I want people to benefit from the products.
That's what I think, but of course people are free to view it under any light.
You can benefit and earn money from it at the same time. Why not?

Because the fact is I can say a million of words, but
not even one gets into your head because you've already blocked
it mentally.

I don't mind. You can dislike the product, think that it's crap, whatever. But fact is it has
benefited people.

Even if I'm not going to be successful in this line, I learned a lot from it.
I learned to be firm in my stand, I learned not to be influenced by what
people say because I don't wanna commit the fallacy of composition.
What true for one, or even true for half the globe, may not be true for all.
If you fail in this line, it's because you are incompetent, it's not because
this line failed you. So if you decided to flame this whole industry
just because you're incompetent, then I have nothing to say.

Anyone out there that may be reading this, I strongly urge
you NOT TO BE INFLUENCED BY WHAT PEOPLE SAY.
Instead, EXPERIENCE it yourself. You may see things that
other people failed to see and wield incredible results.

2009-09-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

There's no way I'm disclosing the contacts.
NO. WAY.

No matter what they're gonna say tomorrow.
NOTHING WILL BREAK MY RESOLVE.

NO. WAY.

Okay yeah so I'm back to the MLM thing.
I better see some money rolling in if not I'm out
of this. Wasted 12bucks on transportation cost already.

2009-09-12T10:15:00.001-07:00

And thus I stayed up the whole night.

Man, my body clock is screwed up.

2009-09-11T11:08:00.001-07:00

Yet another -CM lost.

Why keep losing ah?

One say is because of hero wise. One say is because of
team play wise.

Keep losing sia.

So after a couple of years, when you look back at
all the people you've met, there's always this
strange feeling tugging your heart.

It's not a matter of the stupid things you do
or say to people, it's the reason why you did that.

All the people, friends, crush, love or even enemies.
I often find myself laughing at those dumb reasons
for whatever hurtful stuffs I once said.
And also the sweet things I said.

Maybe it's a stage where we all have to go through,
but I think I'm being more and more void of emotions.
Hmm.

As compared to last time when everything had to go
by " feeling " or " instinct ", now everything happens for
a reason. If I can't see that reason, I won't do it.
I guess this is being realistic.

2009-09-10T11:16:00.001-07:00

It's okay to hit rock bottom, because any step you take
from then on will only bring you higher.

2009-09-10T10:34:00.000-07:00

Uh.

zZz.

Jialat liao. Should have seen this coming.
Holy shit.

2009-09-09T10:40:00.000-07:00

Spoke for a long time today with Jeremy.

Everything's good, I no longer have any doubts
towards MLM.

In stead, I'm motivated to excel in this area.

It's not always a guaranteed fact that you will have a dedicated
and responsible leader whenever you try out something new.

And now I'm lucky enough to have a great leader.
Sometimes it's very important to have a competent leader.
Sounds like SS.

I pray it'll work, but I'll make sure it works.

2009-09-08T15:27:00.000-07:00

I've been wondering about it for a while now, but what
exactly have I gotten myself into?
I mean yeah, hang and I were looking for a job that pays
on an hourly basis. Then some random guy called us to go
down for an interview and bla bla bla.

Then I realized that this isn't any ordinary job that pays on an
hourly basis. This is MLM, multi level marketing.

I started to doubt the viability of it after hearing so much
raging comments from friends. All the controversy surrounding it.
Just google it and you'll find endless stream of topics
created in forums that flame MLM.

On the whole, it's alright.

It looks and sounds alright to me.

First you understand the products.
Then you think of people whom it'll benefit, and in this case,
it'd benefit those with weak health cause the company is dealing
with healthcare products.

Of course, I thought that my parents would be the ones
who'd benefit.

Then you gradually move on to your friends or relatives.
And the social network gets bigger.

But the biggest question is why is this system of
doing business getting flamed at every second and every minute that
the clock is ticking ?

Theory and concept wise, nothing wrong.

But of course, people would be skeptical towards it,
the rewards are huge if you can do it efficiently.
It's like getting 300-400+ in 2hours, or even just 1 hour, depending
on how long the appointment lasts. If you manage to clinch the deal,
you'd earn the amount that others will take days to earn, in just that 1 or
2 hours.

Sounds too good to be true?
That's what I thought as well.

But it is viable, to me at least.

Yet all those raging and destructive comments can
really shake your stand.

I overhead this from Ms Chelsea, a famous figure
in the company the other day. She was training this new guy and she said,
" Why are you so easily shaken? Why are you so easily distracted by things
around you? "

I thought it made sense.
And well, it did.

MLM is a brand new way of doing business and earning money that is
exposed to us. Sure you've heard that MLM sucks or MLM cheat money.

But let's look at it. I don't know much about other companies, but as for the company
I'm in, the products are fantastic, they are given the sole distributorship in the
whole of SEA, they have the ISO certificate( getting the product approved by Singapore
is essential since the business is in Singapore ) and I've seen for myself the products.

I will not deny that the products amazed me. It amazed me to the point that
I'm very sure I'm getting one set of those for my parents.

And of course, after my parents, my close friends and relatives
are the next people whom I hope they can benefit from it.

But of course, not everyone is comfortable with this.

It's like, first you get a job, then you realized it's MLM.
You received training, and on the last day, they're actually
telling you to sell the products to your relatives or friends.

As for me, I kept thinking that we'd be getting random
customers instead of our relatives. So I wasn't really comfortable
with this. Even if it sounds or feels right, there's still this weird
feeling that I have about the thought that I'd be selling this
to my relatives.

Firstly, I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing. Everyone, and yes EVERYONE
hates the word " Sales " .
Putting sales aside, what if the product is really helpful?
All I'm doing is to bring up the product sample to their house,
introduce it to them and see whether they want it or not. They're not
obliged to buy, they're given a choice.

Secondly, I didn't expect this to happen to soon. I thought we'd be given a list
of numbers to call to fix appointments, I never once thought that
I'd be calling my relatives( soon ) .

Thirdly, I don't expect much from people. Even my mum told me that
she'll just listen, just because of the fact that I'm in the company but she probably wouldn't buy.
Now I'm so fucking irritated by that, why are people so resistant
to things that they don't understand, and that they don't even take
the chance to understand. The product itself is good, but I agree it's expensive.
But what's a little money spent, as compared to your health?

Lastly, even Hang is on the verge of quitting. I don't know, but to me this
company is alright. I'll choose to continue, instead of just stopping here.
I don't believe that it's not gonna work.
And in fact, it has worked. But because of negative comments
from friends and relatives, I became skeptical of it. I need someone
that can hang in there with me, someone that is enthusiastic enough to try
and to know whether it'd work.
But if all else fails, then I guess I'd be sticking around on my own.

And since I'm meeting the consultant tomorrow, I'll probably get more information.

2009-09-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

All the controversy surrounding MLM.

Sianz.

2009-09-07T08:14:00.000-07:00

A car at the age of 21 doesn't sound so bad uh ?

I don't know why I'm still reading your blog.
Maybe it's a habit.

2009-09-06T07:48:00.000-07:00

In for a big project.

Hmm.

Hopefully it'll work out the way I want it !!!

2009-09-05T10:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm...

LOL. Nothing to blog about sia.
Really.

Sometimes I even wonder why I log in.
LOL.

Oh okay.
So yeah there's this interview later.

2009-09-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

Yan's brother is as hilarious and cartoony as Yan.

LOL.

I can't imagine me going out with yan and his bro.
Confirm fun like WTF.
LOL.

Looking forward to that.

Well, BBQ today.

Ate a lot.

That's all.

LOL.

2009-09-03T07:01:00.001-07:00

Finally the job agency peep called me !

Shiokness.

Interview/Training this coming sunday.
WOOOO.

2009-09-02T12:08:00.000-07:00

Stupid love letter - The Friday Night Boys

Cupid shot me in the eye
So they say that love is blind
Is she gonna say yes? Is she gonna say no?
Whatcha gonna say? Take away.
Am I moving too fast? Am I thinking too slow?
I just wanna know...

So I took all night to write this stupid love letter to you
Yeah you! From me, to you
And All the time that I wasted on this stupid love letter to you!
Fuck you! From me to you!
You said no! No! You said no. No!
So I took all night to write this stupid love letter to you.

Pick your heart up off the floor. Leave good intentions at the door
Is she gonna say yes? Is she gonna say no?
Whatcha gonna say? Take away
Am I moving too fast? Am I thinking too slow?
I just wanna know...
So I took all night to write this stupid love letter to you.
Yeah you! From me, to you
And All the time that I wasted on this stupid love letter to you!
Fuck you! From me, to you!
You said no! No! You said no! NO.
So I took all night to write this stupid love letter to you

Too late, all the damage is done
There's no return to sender...

So I took all night to write this stupid love letter to you
Yeah you! From me, to you
And all the time that I wasted on this stupid love letter to you!
Fuck you! From me, to you
You said no! No! You said no! No.
So I don't gotta night to write this stupid love letter to you...

link

Permanent Heartbreak - The Friday Night Boys

Face down on the bathroom floor
Did you know you left me hanging out to dry
Can you see me in the ICU
Do you even care, I'm fighting for my life

Wrapped in confusion
Were you only using me to try to get him back
You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

Left lying in my bed
It's killing me that
Your next to him, not me
I wish I wasn't stuck with
This stupid tattoo of you on me

Wrapped in confusion
Were you only using me to try to get him back
You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

Can you see me and I see you
Do you even care, I'm dying

You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
Woah oh, I hate that your A-okay!
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

link

2009-09-02T05:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm.

The journey of life.

When you were a little baby, people pacify and give you all you
want. You'd be wearing those shoes that makes hell lots of noise.
As time goes by, you're sent for education. Then you'd be so
excited about school, excited about carrying a bag and wearing school shoes.
Not to mention the uniform and the sky high socks.

A couple of years go pass, and in no time you'd find yourself in a secondary school.
Wow, a real nice place. The field looks big, the canteen looks big and there are
hell lots of facilities in the school. Then you get so excited about school all over again.

New friends here and there. Okay, everywhere. But some familiar faces can be found.
Thus your school term starts ...

You respect the teachers and stuffs, but well that's due to fear.
Uh huh. You're afraid to cross the limit because you've never seen anyone cross
the limit before.

For guys, pants high and uniform tucked in. Hair short, never touching the collar.
Well, simply put, slope.

For girls, pretty much the same except for the hair part I guess.

A year gone, and you find yourself in secondary 2.

You made a new friend. It's called love.

You start to know the existence of that thing, and sometimes
even let it rule your life. ( although some already knew it in primary school.. hmm )

You start to find loopholes in the school rules.
Be it attire wise or assignment wise.

Another year gone, secondary 3.

You start to exploit the loopholes found back in secondary 2.

For guys, short pants turned into long pants.
For some weird reasons, the pants start to " go down "
Going as low as possible ...

For girls, skirt remains as skirt.
For some weird reasons(again), the skirt becomes shorter.
Weird?

For girls who're in love at this point in time, you probably have someone
to complain to when you're having a bad day.
For guys, yeah they're the ones who're listening.

Or sometimes it's the other way round.

Another year passed. Secondary 4.

You start to notice the presence of O's.
Seems very scary, the very thought of you failing O's is disastrous.

School work becomes heavier and teachers become stricter about assignments.

Upon the end of O's, here comes the long-awaited graduation night.

You get dressed in the prettiest/coolest outfit you can find.

Now into poly/jc.

Workload becomes heavier in JC.
Well, expected.

For those in poly, they'd never imagine the insane amount of projects
waiting for them.
All they've heard about poly is that " it's very slack "

A couple of years go pass, new friends made and attachment.
Long-awaited attachment.
Then graduation party ( again )

A few decades go past.

For single old women, they have no one to complain to when they are
having menopause.
So they start to make life hell for everyone around them.
Then everyone feel equally screwed up.

For old women who are attached, the people around them are
spared the agony. But yeah, someone has to sacrifice.

Then you die.

Hmm....

~

2009-09-01T10:07:00.000-07:00

Woooooooo.

Looking for movies/games to download.

Any recommendations?

2009-08-31T11:16:00.000-07:00

Woo.

Out for the entire day.
Pretty good I guess.

Need to go back school to do some stuffs tomorrow.
Damn, 12 lei.
Haiz.
LOL.

Let's hope I can wake up on time tomorrow.

Class BBQ this friday.
WOOOOOOOOO although I don't know whats so exciting about this.
LOL .

2009-08-30T10:44:00.000-07:00

Ma de.
Losing streak man.

Things always have to come to the point where everything we do
seems awkward.
Hmm...

Shall leave that as that, as always.

2009-08-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

LOL.

I NEED A JOB.

MY FRIEND SAY THERE'S THIS REALLY NICE JOB AT SENTOSA
WHICH PAYS 7BUCKS PER HOUR.

*REFER TO BELOW*

Akbarian says:
*got this one job
*pays 7 bucks per hour
*very nice
*at sentosa
_l_ Bros : boreD http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E39j5Qn-vBw says:
*hello
*uh
*so do what?
Akbarian says:
*mop the beach till dry

LOL !!

2009-08-28T11:20:00.000-07:00

Man.
Exams gone.

Holidays here.

Guess what?

Time to find a job and slog my way through the holidays.

2009-08-26T08:07:00.000-07:00

Holy shit.

2 more days.

THEN IT'S ALL OVER ( for the moment )

2009-08-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

Random.
But buggy.

Sometimes we can lose things without knowing it.
Friends, for instance.

A small change that you might not see, will lead to a big change
in the long run. And after that, there's nothing to do except
watch the tragedy unfold before you.
Or maybe you can reminisce.

Like I've always said, be it friends that you have made or friends you have lost,
it'll become obvious at the end of the day.
Because at the end of the day, it's evident who's there and who's not.

Guess life still has surprises at every corner.

2009-08-25T10:30:00.000-07:00

Woo.

BMGT.
LoL.

Death Match tomorrow.
Fucktard.

2009-08-24T02:58:00.001-07:00

A song by A Day To Remember.
They're singing a cover of Since you been gone by Kelly Clarkson.
LOL.
I prefer this version to KC's version.

2009-08-22T10:26:00.000-07:00

Holy shit man,
I can't believe I download GBA ( Game Boy Advance Emulator )
and played Yu-Gi-Oh for more than 5hours straight.
LOL !

Well that wraps up my Saturday.
Gotta head down to Mac tomorrow to start studying.

Anyone wanna come with me?
I know many people want.
=D LOL kidding.

2009-08-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

LoL.

PBA paper was relatively okay I guess.
Hope I can get an A !!!

3 more papers next week and I'm done with this
semester.
I forgot who, but I was reminiscing about secondary school
life with somebody.
Hmm weird.

Right.