Jogged just now. Wah seriously, I think I'm getting damn old.
LOL.
Damn tired just now.
Was on the verge of stopping but the duck keep quacking and quacking.
So yeah I managed to complete the designated course !

Then 3 boring matches of DotA.
Hmm our ganging skills are becoming better and better.
Hope it'll keep improving !

Today is quite productive !!
Managed to finish DSS project.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA NOTHING BAD CAN HAPPEN
EVEN IF YOU CLOSE BOTH EYES SO LONG AS
YOU HAVE GOOD GROUP MATES.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

That's one load off the shoulders, again ~
PBA project is the last thing on my mind.
Then I'd begin preparing for exam.
AND HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
I LOVE HOLIDAYS.
I don't know why though.
But holidays are boring.
Cannot make fun of people.
._.


Sakura in 2 weeks time ~
Shiokness.
DURIAN TART.

And I swear not to pon classes unless I have something to do !!!!

Damn.

DSS DUE THIS WEEK OMG SENSE MY SHOCK.

Wa jialat liao, DSS only halfway done.
OH NOEZ.
OH CRAPZ.

Nb, PBA haven't start on the codes yet.
OMG.
OH NOEZ.
OH CRAPZ.

Suddenly my life very busy sia.

But I still have time to play FishAFish.
LOL

LoL.

I'm so bored that I'm playing some facebook application -.-

BORING.

BMGT presentation tomorrow.
After tomorrow, it'd be a heavy weight off my back !

But I guess it'd probably make way for DSS..
Due this week.
HAHAHA fuck that man.

BORING.

I seriously think that I HAVE NO LIFE.

Every night is spent dota-ing.
It's not like it's VERY FUN(not till this extent) or I'm addicted,
it's JUST THAT I HAVE NOTHING TO DO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*DEPRESSION*

Actually I have tons of stuffs to do.
But as usual, I'm closing both eyes.
SELF-DENIAL.

Boring day. Hmm.

Went out with wilson to look for my earpiece.

DSS E-learning assignment undone(due sunday), DSS unit application exercise undone(due sunday) , DSS PBL2 undone(due god-knows-when) , BMGT presentation slides undone(due tuesday), PBA project undone( due god-knows-when ) and POA not revised[ MAJOR EXAMS FTW(FUCK THE WALL) ]

Seems like I don't have much things to do.. eh?
Self-denial.

Tired. Well not quite.
Bla, forgot what I did today.

It may sound quite dumb, but what does sulfur do exactly?
As in does it poison you and kill you or something?
-_-

Right, some things never change.
And they never will.
Resign to fate ba MR Teo Wilson.

Anyway I pon lecture today ( what's new? )
So went to do BMGT.. bla bla bla.
Boring monotonous life.


i hate the way you make me feel like i'm in heaven.
and the next moment i'm shattered into a million pieces.
although i know it's not intentional...

zZz
Should I attend lecture tomorrow?
If I go then need to wake up at 9.
If not then at 1.
It's freaking 4hours difference.
HOW?

Been feeling guilty about not attending lectures since week 2.
Yeah.. But that doesn't change anything ._.

I don't wanna waste my time away like this.
But I can't understand whatever the lecturer's talking about.

Hai.
Emo sio, test got a number of careless mistakes.

On a brighter note, tomorrow school starts at 1 !!!
And it's LMS...
Gonna do a bloody MOCK QUIZ.
Uh, means no need to study lor.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCK I'M SO LAZY.

LoL.

Wa damn tired.
zZz.

I have a test to score tomorrow !

BELIEVE IN MYSELF.
LOL.

Out with wilson and dave today!

Fucking funny, but too tired to blog.
HAHAHA

This is giving me a headache.
Hmm..

It's about time to end this fantasy.

You only stand to break my heart,
I can tell by the way I'll runaway,
Runaway girl.


I wouldn't give it a shot, because I'm definitely missing it.

What the fuck, the light bulb decided to die on me when my plan
is to DotA through the night.
PCB.
I'm using wired connection, so I can't bring my lappy else where.
FUCK.

So I'll probably keep this short and simple cause I don't know when
my light bulb's gonna start blinking and die.


My eyes hurt from the constant blinking of light.
Feels so sick...
WTF.


I tried. And I failed.
As usual.


Henderson wave tomorrow with bros.
Wonder what we gonna do up there -_-

Oh, how I've tried to get you out of my head.
And I lied, broken words I said.
Never thought I'd walk on this street again.
Standing where it all began.


Tried to forget when I left this town,
But it takes me right back when I come back around.


Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm right there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.


Oh, how I find every subtle thing screams your name.
It reminds me of places of times we shared.

Couldn't live locked in these memories.
Now I'm chained to my thoughts again.


And I tried to forget when I left this town,
But I'll take you right back if you come back around.

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm right there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.


I need some shelter, I need some safety.
Photographs, they haunt me lately.
Chasing shadows as the evening takes me.
I'm still searching, but the picture's fading.


Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm right there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards, still counting backwards.


And no where else has ever felt like home.
And I can't fall asleep when I'm lying here alone.
I replay your voice, it's like you're here.
You move the earth, but now the sky is falling.



Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
In my mind, I'm back by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.

Retrace by Anberlin.



The bolded parts keeps replaying in my mind.
zZz like a broken recorder.
SO I'M LISTENING TO THIS SONG IN CLASS NOW.
Hahahaha.



Should I go? Sigh.

CAN'T CONCENTRATE IN CLASS

Tired.

Unable to sleep well for the past 3 nights.
I can feel my whole body aching when I wake up in the morning -,-

I don't know what I want.
Or maybe I'm too coward to chase after what I want.
Failures make you succeed.
But I'm so sick of it.

Bored.
Stucked at library.
Yawn.


Wasn't able to sleep well last night.
zZz.

Bored.

" Words have no meaning except for the meaning we assign them "

How true.

Anyway, LMS was helpful.
A number of logic put into words.
It's funny how absurd it sounds before it was put into words.
If anyone actually know what I'm talking about...
Then go buy 4D. You're uber lucky.

I'm amazed how Mr Laurence/Laurance/Lawrance can have me wondering
for the whole day with just a few words.
Hmm...


" It's affecting you because you care. Things that you care the most
will always affect you the most. "
Quoted from him, true eh?

Many a times, people don't know why it hurts.
The reason is simple.
It hurts because you care.


Oh, lastly..

Do not show your weakness to people whom you don't know.
Cause you never know when they'd use it against you.
A message to everyone out there, it's advisable not to blog about
your weakness or your bane because you never know who's reading your blog.
It's always better to be careful.

Being rich does give you an edge over others.
Isn't it?

Money isn't everything.
But without money you cannot do anything.
Oh, one thing you can do though.
Quoting from ChewYi,
" Dreams are free "

Yeah, so probably when you have NO money, you can
DREAM.

I'm not trying to make money sound so omnipotent here.
But the society shows us that, isn't it?

Yawnz, just back from meeting _!_Bros.

Boring day. Oh I missed the lessons on monday.

Nothing to blog about already.
zZz.



Disappointed. Really.


---EDIT---


Opps I forgot to blog about " Where is the love "

Apparently we were discussing about my blogpost in the lift when
dave suddenly blurted out " Where is the love "
Made no sense to me...
LOL

Many a times, what we want is really very simple.
It's a simple yet significant wish.

It's like a maths formula.

Me + You = Us. That's really simple, right?

However, the equation starts to get complicated when
variables are introduced into the formula.

Variables such as distance, compatibility, trust, communication, self-confidence, assurance and the list goes on and on.

Love's a really complicated formula, isn't it?




Thoughts.

Helplessness.
I don't wish to see you suffer because of an indelible scar.
I don't wish to see you getting stucked in the bottomless pit of emotions.

I want and I hope so much that I can help you.

But I can't.

Heartbreak isn't something that can be cured.

This world's really complicated.
I'm sorry to burst the bubble.
It's IMPOSSIBLE to live a simple life.

You read newspapers, you watch the news and you hear.
If you observe carefully, the world's stucked in a vicious cycle.

Corruption, nuclear warfare, assassinations and campus-killing-spree.

One thing I'll never understand is the inability of majority of humans to
care about the living.
Countries can spend millions and millions of dollars on nuclear warfare research,
to kill people.
Yet they never realized that people are dying everyday, every minute and every second that the world is spinning.
And the reason?
Simple. Millions of dollars were misplaced into nuclear warfare when it can be used to feed the hungry, to get countries out of the poverty cycle, to spend on research on curing cancers.

There is so much more that the money can be spent on, rather than killing each other.


You've probably heard of the way lions or tigers hunt. They prey on the weak.
Or you've probably heard of wolves hunting in a pack. Ripping their prey apart.

But if you take 2 seconds to put humans in the context,
you'd probably realize that
humans are killing each other. Eradicating their own race.

The ratio of people who care about those suffering to the people who care
about gaining wealth, power and supremacy at the cost of other people is really ridiculous, don't you think?

Sometimes I wonder. I really wonder..

There's no one, NO ONE in this world that can be compared to you.
And I'm NOT kidding about that.

A few months ago, I went to this random blog which directed me to your blog.
And today, I went to this random blog which directed me to another blog, and the first
thing I saw on that blog is your picture.

How small can the internet be?

Wanted to study PBA all over again today, but seems like I failed.
zZz.




i never realized that it's still in my handphone.
that day seems so far away, yet so vivid in my memory.

i don't know why, but when life gets tiring and sucky,
your smile always fill my thoughts.

then i realized how far i am from you.

^^

Today is a well-spent day !

Went to school as usual, bla bla bla.

Went home to dump my bag and rested for a while.
Headed back to school at near 6 to meet captain, muthu and chinaman.

Thus we headed to Vivo.
As usual, we crapped all the way there.
Actually we crapped for the whole day O.O.

So we met up with indo guy and went to HK restaurant.
Some GaryKim thing restaurant.

I decided to have " Supreme curry " but changed my mind to
" Pineapple curry " after the waitress told us that " Supreme Curry " is quite hot.

Felt relieved for a while... UNTIL the food arrived.

Took the first bite and I could feel the hot-ness of it.
LOL.

I turned and look at chinaman. Same expression. Lol.

Then before I knew it, I was sweating already.
I felt like wilson teo at this point in time.
Bloody hell Hadi still said it's a bit hot only.
zZz.

So chinaman and I had trouble finishing the food.
But we managed to finish it eventually..

Then there was this pretty waitress who came over to
clean the table.
I used a fairly large amount of tissue paper to wipe my sweat,
so did chinaman.
Then I didn't realize that it's that pretty waitress who was cleaning our table,
I thought it's some auntie.
Then I commented loudly.

" Eh Muthu why you use so much tissue? "

LOL.
Then after that I realized that it's not some auntie, it's that pretty waitress ~!
Hahahahahahaaha. The expression on Muthu's face is... ^^

So we wanted to head over Henderson waves, but we spent one hour walking around.
Bla bla bla, we finally ended up BACK at the SkyPark.

We crapped, reminisce the DPA and CKP times, as well as share about
our current classes.
Nothing beats that, seriously.
Bintan times, Tham CheeKuan times, Tabitha times.. Endless.

Don't wanna go too deep into it, in case a long paragraph forms unknowingly.


CKP OUTING SOON ~

我一直在寻找
可爱的微笑
今天终于让我找到

What's new and special enough to be brought into NP?

Brainstorming for ideas.. to earn $$.

Feeling so shag ~


Supposed to feel lighter cause LMS's over, yet I
still feel so burdened and heavy ._.

Another week's gonna pass soon.
Time passes really fast uh ?

DSS tomorrow.
Gotta sleep early if not I'd definitely fall asleep during the lesson.
But then again, does that make any difference? ._.



sometimes i really wonder why you left.
it doesn't matter as much as before.
but yet i can't stop wondering why.



i guess i did.
but i didn't want to get reminded of this heartache.
that's probably why i..

Had dinner at market place with retarded free duck just now.
Oh, that's wilson.
LOL.

Bored.
Is it a phenomenon or am I imagining things ._.
Everywhere I go, there're so many couples.

So I watched Batman Begins and The Incredible Hulk
at the library just now instead of studying.
Wooo.

Signed up for the entrepreneurship thingy with Edward and Jerome
just now. It's starting this thursday !!
Excited ~



if you aren't, then who else?
don't kid me.
what's true for one may not be true for all.
it applies to views too.

I caught myself day-dreaming in the library when I'm supposed to study.

._.

LOL. Too bored so I did this. The words are exactly the same as
my facebook's shoutout.



from here on.
i really wonder.

who'd be there?


i'm full of envy for people who have a soulmate.
like.. who doesn't?

Alright.

I'm quitting beef from today onwards.
I'm not supposed to eat them anyway.

Gotta start respecting the traditions and religion
since I'm in one.

Bored.


When you're in a hopeless situation.
They'd say " Just go for it, you won't know until you try. "
Then you consider this option.
Finally, you decide to go for it.

But you never realize that.
The situation didn't change just because you're willing to try.

It's as hopeless as it was before you decide to try.

Then you end up with another scar.
At the end of the day,
you'd probably ask yourself what's the point of all these,
when the ending is obvious?

I probably inherited the Guai Lan genes from my mum -.-

This was the Guai Lan conversation that I had with my mum just now.


Me : Hello laoma ar.

Mum : Call me for what?
( first sign of guai lan )

Me : I want to eat zhu zha tang ( pig intestines soup )

Mum : No.
Me : What no?

Mum : No zhu zha tang. The stall today never sell.
* i knew she's lying cause the stall's 24hours *

Me : What close sia, that stall 24hours leh.

Mum : No zhu zha tang. They don't want sell.

Me : I want zhu zha tang.

Mum : No.

Me : What's wrong with you sia?!

Mum : No means no. You want to eat, you come down.

Me : I don't care. Pack for me.

Mum : No. Pack for you means take from your father stall.

Me : *WTF*


Now you know why I'm so guai lan at times ._.
Probably got that from my mum.

I am semi-drunk now.
Kaya just vomited all over.
Me and wilson were just done with cleaning up his room.
GG.
He's sleeping in another room.
Who'd have thought this would happen?

-EDIT-

I'm awake and at home now.
Buay tahan, my head feels super heavy.
No appetite for breakfast.

Right. So kaya got drunk and vomited on the floor.
Wilson and I spent time cleaning up his room -.-

I thought he was knocked out, he literally collapse on the floor.
I wasn't much better off, had trouble getting him to stand.

Then I was wondering why he's the one to get drunk -.-

Green tea doesn't work leh.
At least heavenNearth green tea doesn't work.



i hate how the way things are now.
really.
i hate the fact that i need alcohol to sleep better.
and i really hate the fact that even when i can't walk straight,
you're all that's on my mind.

Looking forward to the meetup later.
Finally a chance to unwind after a hectic and full-of-shit week.

I feel so shitty.
Yeah I know, not the first time. Anyway.

I feel like dropping myself on the bed for the next 48hours.
Rotting on it.
But I can't.
That's sad?
Have to finish up LMS tomorrow.
No room for frustration and feelings to kick in.

If anyone out there really think that they're strong emotionally,
PLEASE think twice.

You won't know how strong you are until you experience
when-all-the-shit-come-at-one-time.


I seriously wonder.
It's the second time I'm in this situation.

It'd fail. I know. I just know.

It'd be a gift from God if I'm able to sleep tonight.


Gotta pack my feelings and dump them one side for the moment.
Need to do LMS ASAP.
Actually it'd be better if I can dump them permanently.
They just slow me down, so what's the use of keeping them?


the last thing i heard was your voice.
i get what i deserve.

it's gonna start soon.
isn't it?

Fuck today.

Fuck DSS. Seriously.
All that shit that we put in for a mere B.

Fuck my luck in Cabal.
Wasted more than 5m.

fuck everything.
bloody tired.

Yawnz.

12.27AM now.
Cabal-ing since 9 or something.

Freaking shit, decided to return to my Frozen319.
Too lazy to start a new account, the quests will drive me mad.
I did Port Lux quest TWICE already, don't wanna go for a 3rd time.
-.-

I dread the weekends.
God damn it.
Need to do project on weekends, and they're not easy.


You don't feel the stress when homework's piling up,
you only feel it when you want to accomplish each and every task to the best
of your ability.

Results out on Friday.
God. Bless. Me.
I'm quite screwed for MAEC. Got a lot of questions wrong I think.



And I guess some things are just not meant to be.